As I take the first sip of my morning coffee and sigh romantically while looking out the window to a beautiful morning. I felt the urge to write a little bit. Was a little hesitant at first because I didn’t have anything special planned, or anything specific to say? So I thought it would be pointless. But I once promised to write and share whatever nonsense I was feeling. So here I am.
I’m actually alone right now. Only my beautiful furball Piña to accompany me and my thoughts.
First I wanted to share how grateful I am about how things are turning out in my life. I’m really excited to enjoy this summer, see my family, disconnect for a bit after some very intense working months. Take photos, create content and write.
Also, I’m really afraid.
It’s no secret that I stress out about everything and anything. I’m a control freak, and if I could predict the future so that I can make decisions beforehand and strategize, I would. But that’s not how life works. Walking to the unknown frightens me like anything else. I know I’m not alone in this, but we all need to learn how to adapt and let things be.
“Let it be, let it be, let it be, let it be
Yeah, there will be an answer, let it be
Let it be, let it be, let it be, let it be
Whisper words of wisdom, let it be”
After a John Lennon mini-break, let’s continue, shall we?
As you all know I’m moving to Madrid with my boyfriend. We are starting a new life, in a new place, with new projects on the horizon. But I don’t really know where I’m going. Where will I work? What am I going to do for a living? That’s what really scares me.
Also because I always wanted to do something on my own. I’ve noticed in the past almost 7 years living here in Europe, that working for yourself is harder here. But this is a constant wish and dream of mine. I’m just too scared. I hate to admit it, but I am. I don’t know what first steps to take. Which direction to go. And it’s frustrating because sometimes I’m bursting with ideas and exciting creative things to do, but I don’t know where, or how to start.
There’s also the fact that I’m kind of an introvert, to be honest. So it’s hard for me to be all bubbly and out there. And this is a huge setback for my personal and professional life. But I’m working on this.
There’s also the question of what should I do. As I said, I burst with ideas but I don’t know how to bring them down to Earth and shape them into something real and tangible. Do I really see myself designing clothes all my life? Maybe taking photos? Do I prefer to create content? Is there a way to mix all of these? Please let me know.
Have you ever been in a situation like this? I’m sure this is very common as I don’t think anyone has everything figured out. I really don’t think that’s possible. I just think there are people capable of adapting and taking decisions on the spot, better than others.
After saying all that, I just wanted to point out the fact that even though all of these thoughts are circling constantly in my mind. They don’t stress me out constantly. Ups and downs, like everything else in life.
I’m really chilled at the moment, as a matter of fact. But having all of these changes in my life recently. And all of them at once. It’s inevitable to raise certain questions. And for the same old thoughts to come back to mind.
Have a great week everyone! And please don’t hesitate to write some advice in the comments down below. Or DM me on Instagram.